The First Kiss ❤️

It all started when I was in 1st semester. New life at a new place hoping to be better and if I could, find myself a girl. I didn't look, I never thought about looking for one. Some just pass by, and some stop by just to teach my heart a lesson.

One of those days during that semester, I joined a club called Persada -- because I like to dance and also with hope to see some hot babes. On one night I saw a hot babe. She was beautiful -- with a body that sway with her burgundy dress and a voice so loud yet sweet it shook my heart. I instantly felt an attraction towards her. The night passed but I did not catch her name and I felt like it would take a while before I could meet her again.

So I did what any 18 year old would do at that time -- I Facebook her. Although sadly I couldn't find her. But life goes on and more pass by and a few touch my heart. As days pass by and finals are coming to a close, I met two gentlemen who acknowledge my skills as a Bboy and acquire the same interest. They took me in and treated me like a brother. They taught me about perseverance, loyalty and most of all friendship.

In my 2nd semester, during one day of our daily routine at the Mechanical Faculty building, 4 girls came by and watch. I was shy at first, and it struck me, "that's her, the girl from the other night". My heart sank as she said hi to me -- and I pulled in my stomach, took a deep breath, look dead cold in her "pretty melt your heart eyes" and said "hey". I continue my routine -- trying to ignore them looking but at the same time trying to impress her.

Although I did not able to charm her heart that day, I caught her name. She had such a pretty name that fits her pretty self. As days goes by, I was able to find her on Facebook. I added her but we didn't talk -- just the usual "thanks for add ya :)". After a while my attraction towards her became stronger like a candle burning brighter and brighter.

Soon we became closer and started talking on a regular basis. But then the candle started to fade as my tears started falling on it as I found out she was not available. My girl at that time was in the hand of another man. And all I could do was put on a smile whenever she pass by.

As semesters pass -- many goodbyes has been spoken and many safe trip wishes has been said, we remain friends and it's undeniable that the candle still has a spark to it. One day during my semester break, I got a text from her. She was looking for me because she was alone in KL and she saw me as a friend that could be there for her. Sadly I couldn't but I promised to look for her back when I return -- and I did.

We started hanging out like any two friends would but one day, on 24th April 2014, my life changed. It was at the movie, Brick Mansion was showing and we decided it would be a good watch since the late Paul Walker was in it. We didn't felt awkward -- we held hands, and her hands felt like it has always held mine. Like it was perfectly made to fit in my hand.

And so the movie started -- she leaned her head on my shoulder, and I could smell her scent. So sweet it made my blood boil. I saw her lips -- pink with a hint of sexy. I couldn't hold it any longer. The candle started glowing brighter -- I wanted to kiss her so bad and so I fondled her neck and peck her cheeks, as she pushes me away.

I pushed my lips nearer to her's, and she held my face, looked into my eyes, and gave me a peck on the lips. Simple enough the candle exploded and I felt something that I never knew I could feel. It's so warm and nice inside. I immediately knew, this girl is something special and I should never let her go.

I choose to love her -- because she's my friend, she's my lover, and most of all, she's my happiness. I love her with all my heart. Without a doubt, she has been in my heart since forever. It just took her touch for my heart to see that all the pain in the past was worth that moment. She's my end and my beginning -- and I wouldn't want anyone else to stay in my heart but her.

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Lumrah Hidup

Assalamualaikum and hello bloggers. Hahaha as usual la I memang suka jadi chipsmore dekat blog ni kejap ada kejap hilang. Well nak kata busy tu tak juga cuma tahap kerajinan tu kurang sikit. Maybe it's because walaupun duduk rumah tapi ada commitment yang lain. Okay so what's the story? Let me see... Banyak je nak cerita so I'll just summarize everything and make the long stories short okay?

First of all. Alhamdulillah syukur I have completed my Diploma in Culinary Arts from University of Technology Mara (UiTM) Pulau Pinang. My 3 years journey has successfully ended with clean record. Memang syukur sangat sebab seriously I rasa macam baru je masuk UiTM haritu. Tengok sekarang dah dapat title "graduan". Well dah officially graduated la cuma tak pakai jubah, ambil scroll and baling topi lagi. Yang tu kena tunggu lagi 6 bulan *sigh* but yeah janji diploma dah dalam tangan. As I said on my Facebook my 2 life goals achieved which to make my parents proud and to have a Diploma. But yeah there are more goals yang memang lepas ni kena usaha lebih lagi. And my next goal is to have my Degree. Nak juga ada title "Bachelor in ..." tu kan. Dalam kurungan "Hons". Gitewww. Oh and of course -- KAHWIN!

Anyway. I have this one thing on my mind yang sampai sekarang I can't just figure it out. Tak tau nak cakap macam mana. Kalau cakap direct nanti ada yang terasa pula. But who cares. Rasanya benda ni memang lumrah la kan. So we just have to deal with it. Sometimes I rasa bengang dengan masyarakat kita ni, Bukan nak kata Melayu ni tak bagus but admit it orang Melayu ni memang tak boleh lari dari perasaan dengki, tak puas hati and suka sangat jaga tepi kain orang lain. Tak faham la kenapa dah zaman millennium pun masih wujud orang yang berperangai sebegitu rupa. Ugh. Geram bila fikir balik. I malas nak cerita perkara sebenar and it happens that I'm good at sarcasm so yeah faham sendiri je la. Hahaha. Sometimes people tend to act like they know everything about you. Lepas tu cakap main ikut sedap mulut tak tau cerita sebenar. Paling penting I just don't get it why do you have to bother with people's choices. Tak semua benda yang kita buat kita kena dapatkan permission dari each and every human being kan? Gelabah sangat. I mean come on. Just deal with the fact that I am tremendously happy with my choice. Hidup masing masing so tak payah nak masuk campur and act like you know me better. Tak perlu la sampai nak buka aib orang sebar macam macam kat semua orang and buat orang lain nampak diri kau ditindas. Ugh publisiti murahan sangat. So fuck it!

I really hope this kind of people mendapat hidayah dari Allah untuk menjalani hidup mereka dgn tenang tanpa perlu menjaga tepi kain orang lain. Amin. Anyway I am undoubtedly happy with one of my life choices which is to be Asyraf Kamaruddin's girlfriend. Memang la orang cakap kita kalau bercinta ni jangan taksub sangat. Buat biasa sudah. But yeah. I memang happy dengan dia and that's the kind of happiness that I need in life. Tak taksub but I'm thankful and there is no way I'm gonna lose him. To be honest we do have a lot of arguments especially bila dah duduk jauh ni but I guess that's what makes us stronger. Geram juga dengan dia ni sebab selalu nak menang je tapi it's my fault too (sometimes). Hahaha. Kalau nak compare between us I'm the one yang selalu sangat buat hal. Tapi dia sabar je walaupun sometimes dia hilang sabar juga la. I'm the greatest pain in his ass. I love him. I'm in love with his imperfections. I'm so in love. Tak tau nak cakap macam mana sebab nanti korang yang baca ni mesti annoyed. Hahaha. Sorry. So I guess entri kali ni stop sampai sini. Ada peluang nanti I will update more!

XOXO,
Zha

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