To be honest, I rasa benda ni all the time and I don't even understand why. Sometimes I rasa I dah give my best tapi orang takkan pernah nampak. In fact orang selalu cakap yang I don't understand the situation la, I ni saja nak create scene la. Tapi orang tak pernah tanya I nak apa or apa yang I rasa. The best thing about being me kan, I never get bored and tired of everything. Walaupun mulut ni cakap dah serik, but I tetap akan be the same old me yang redha je dengan apa yang orang buat.
I have this one friend. She used to be my good good friend. Tapi out of the blue she just disappear macam tu je. Tak contact, tak cari, buat macam I ni strangers. I tak kisah pasal harta benda. Benda yang boleh settle then kita settle. Tapi tak perlu sampai nak jauhkan diri dari I sampai neglect I as if I ni tak pernah jadi kawan rapat.
I tau some of you akan rasa macam "tak perlu kot nak cerita masalah kat public" tapi I tak kisah. You guys wanna know why? Sebab there is no one yang sebenarnya rela hati nak dengar my problems. I can't share with any of my friends sebab most of my friends cuma cari I bila perlu je. So that is why I prefer let it all out kat sini sebab no one gives a shit about my blog.
I bukan jenis perempuan yang pandai put on make ups, do eyebrows, wear fancy accessories, pakai branded stuffs and high heels or even stylish hijab. I am just me -- village people. To be honest, I memang put so much efforts just to impress my boyfriend. Well orang akan cakap I ni desperate but at least I tak kacau sesiapa except for my boyfriend. I perempuan, I insecure all the time especially bila in a long distance relationship. Tapi tu la, sampai bila bila pun I akan rasa yang I belum cukup baik untuk dia. It's not just him, I think tak cukup baik untuk everyone.
Ugh it is so depressing bila fikir benda macam ni. I kinda hate my life.
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