Too Much!

Assalamualaikum and hai you guys. Guess what? Blog I kini berwajah baru. Woohoo! I am so excited about this. Even URL I pun I dah tukar. So lepas ni you guys kena cari blog I balik tau. Dah tak boleh search guna URL lama. Sorry sangat sangat sebab menyusahkan. But this time I nak buat blog I more simple and slightly shows my maturity. With new title and brand new look buat I lebih bersemangat nak update blog lepas ni. Cehh. Semangat la sangat. Well. Kalau dekat rumah boleh la nak curi masa untuk update blog. Kalau kat Penang memang tak dapat la der. Dengan line broadband yang macam haremmm and dengan WiFi kat Kristal B macam... Okay. Tak boleh mencarut. No no no! So apapun I tetap akan update blog I ni selagi I mampu. Promise!

So what's the story this time? Kali ni I nak story pasal someone that I care too much until I hurt myself. Pergh! Hahaha. Macam funny la pula I cakap camtu. But it's the truth. Do you guys ever care for someone that much and he or she just never realize it? It makes you feel unappreciated. Neglected. What else? Hmm. To be honest. I selalu terperangkap dalam masalah macam ni. I'm the type of person yang senang sangat nak sayang orang. That's my biggest problem in life. Seriously. Sometimes I cursed myself for being super stupid. I trusted people easily. I cared for them. They left and I'm hurt. Poor me or f*ck them?

I met this person in Penang. Obviously in UiTMPP. Hahaha. Takkan I nak make friends dengan strangers kat Penang tu pula kan? So yes. We did have a good time together. He always be there for me when I need a shoulder to cry. He never failed in making me smile. One simple thing I can describe about him is he's like a brother to me. I love him as much as I love my brother (well of course I sayang abang I lebih la). I care for him and I will always do my best to make him happy. Kalau pasal gaduh tu memang pernah la. Once or twice maybe. Kitorang jarang gaduh but I don't know where is the mistake. Things changed.

Now I feel like I lost him. Yes, he's thousand miles away from me (due to semester break) tapi takkan la tak boleh contact langsung kan? Facebook, Twitter, BBM, Whatsapp semua tu boleh jadi source untuk stay connected. I don't see any effort. I memang cuba cari dia. I akan cari topik so that kitorang ada ongoing conversation. Unfortunately no respond. Mesti korang tau feeling dia bila orang tu tak nak cakap dengan kite kan? Some sort of unease feelings. Haaa. Macam tu la I rasa bila dengan dia. He pushed me away. Seems like he's trying his best not to get attached with me.

Pelik kan? How can someone who used to be so close to you suddenly become a stranger. I just hate that. Sometimes I macam tak nak kenal dia but I have no regrets at all for having him in my life as a good friend of mine. I just hope he'll never forget me. He'll love me as much as I love him and care for me as much as I care for him. Nak tulis panjang lagi tapi tak sanggup pula. Hmm.

Zha, xoxo.